How Could You?

by Morning Song

You called me up
Told me you were open
and vulnerable
made sure I knew that

You wanted to know
if we could still be friends

How could you be friends
with someone who you said
emotionally abused you?
How could you?

How could you -
how dare you -
tell me that after
searching for what is
missing in your life,
you looked around
and found out that it
was me?

How could you?

How could you
hope that by telling
me that I was your
best friend that
it could be alright again?

How could you
be in love with her
and still want me to
be a part of your life?

How Could You?

How could you
know how to love me,
be open to that
wonderful experience
of being honest and true,
when you have such
control over your own self?
When you can't be
open and free?

How could you
tell me that there
were good times too,
that it wasn't all bad.

I agreed with you.
But left many things unsaid.

You made sure to tell me
that the cards
were all in my hands.
It was up to me
if we were friends
or not

You made sure to tell me
that no matter what
my decission that yours
would remain the same,
you wanted to be my friend.

Why, I ask you -
Why?

Why do I matter so much now.
And I didn't matter
enough to you then
For you to feel safe enough,
to be open to me and all
the love I had to give.

You took that love,
or so it seems to me,
and returned it the best
you could at the time

But it wasn't enough.
You didn't know how
to truly give
yourself
to
me

So I ask you again
Why?

Why do you want to be my
friend now?
You tell me it's because
I am nice, I know you
like no one has known you
before.

Do you stop to think that
you do not know me?
That you didn't take the time
to listen to things
that were not said?

That you took from me
but
could not return
what I gave you?

Do you stop to think
about that?

And you wonder that
my voice is changing
You hear caring
pain, love, anger
And you also compliment me
on knowing myself so well
Because I said I had to
work through all the
bad stuff to get to
the good
And you chuckled
Because I knew myself
so well

How Could You Not Know Me